By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can?t rely on myself

[Chorus:]
I can?t hold on
To what I want when I?m stretched so thin
It?s all too much to take in
I can?t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I?m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they?ll
Take from me ?till everything is gone
If I let them go I?ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I?ll be outrun
If I?m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I?ll be buried in the silence of the answer
by myself [myself]

[x2]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can?t rely on myself

[Chorus]

How do you think I?ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to

[x2]
Don?t you know
I can?t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can?t seem to convince myself why
I?m stuck on the outside

[Chorus x2]