Stygiophobia

I know you're not afraid,
I saw this all close in around you.

I've played this out in my mind so many times (So many times!),
It's too far gone, it's all over
And we both know that this is the way that it's meant to be.
In your chest, can you feel your own heartbeat racing?

And I know you've seen this many times before.
If this is the end then I know that you're breathing.
I know that you're alive
You're closing your eyes

I watched you trembling,
I heard you calling out for me,
I watched you screaming in vain,
And again this time I know that you're breathing.
I know that you're alive.

But can you hold your head up now when this is the way that it's meant to be?
You're closing your eyes
Just to feel your heart inside your chest.
You're closing your eyes just to stay alive.

So many times I held it together and
So many times I tried for you.