Redeeming A Monster

Dear self, stop eating your own foot
Try saying something worth listening to
Everytime you cover up your problems you say
This was the last time, I'll never do it again
And I feel like I never really knew you at all
So let's give this some time, and maybe it will resolve itself.

(Maybe, maybe,)
I'm so tired of
(Maybe, we'll be.)
Making the same mistakes.

I lost myself so long ago, I hid my sins where I thought no one would know
And everytime I look back I see, the person you used to love in me.

And it gets so hard to see my own reflection sometimes
I'm standing unconscious, and I'm ready to wake up
I hope you brought some color with you
Cuz these lines get greyer from here on out
The deeper we go.

I lost myself so long ago, I hid my sins where I thought no one would know
And everytime I look back I see, the person you used to love in me.

You can't stop me from making the same mistakes
I'm pleading for, just a little more, time to heal myself
And I'm hoping you're still here, as I walk up to your door
But you're gone.