Angela Baker and My Obsession With Fire

I won't forget the day that
that I came to
and I started thinking..
that there is more
than just perfect prom queens, and silver spoons

and all I ever wanted
was someone to knock me back to the bliss of ignorance
cause I feel like running head first into traffic..

And so Im here to say..
that thoughts in bed with pain!

I won't forget the day that
that I found god..
in a kitchen knife now, and on my arm..
so paint the pale white floor with
with my red life

And tell me that this pain is
the pain I love
as i swallow the pills of happiness
and you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake

And so im here to say..
that thoughts in bed with pain!

I stand outside, my pretty house
I light a match, to start the fire..
I called the cops, to let em' know
its 22 walthery Ave.

I thought, I wanted this...
I thought, I wanted this...

IM HERE TO SAY!!
I said I wanted, some more attention..
I thought I wanted, a story ending..
(I love the pain!! I hate the pain!!)
I just can't win...
(I love the pain!! I hate the pain!!)
I think that the truth is Im scared..
I think that Im just scared to live!
I think that the truth is
Im every thing that I hate!