we were walking, holding hands,
with our bare feet in the sand
and the seagulls overhead
when i broke the spell and said:

i could never divorce you
without a good reason
though i may never have to,
it's good to have options

but for now i need you

but it was only in my head
because no one ever says
what they really mean to say
when there's that much at stake

so i told her i loved her
and she told me she loved me
and i mostly believed her
and she mostly believed me

A slave to my thoughts daily
I finally lost my craving
Need this to end real soon

You come then you go away
No way I can make it through this
Can you feel my heart fade away?

Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?

My friends can't explain this to me
When I see you I don't see me
I feel I'll never gain
Your affection is a must to me
But reflections of past life won't let me be
Right now all hope is lost

Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?

Save some for me
There's still blood for nine

Do you remember what it was like when you told me no?

Feeling I can't figure me out
I'd try but I'm not allowed
Where do I go from here now?